SLOW DANCE

SLOW DANCE



Have you ever
watched
kids



On a merry-go-round?



Or listened to
the
rain



Slapping on the ground?



Ever followed a

butterfly's erratic flight?



Or gazed at the sun into the
fading
night?



You better slow down.



Don't
dance so
fast.



Time is short.



The music
won't
last.



Do you run through each day



On
the
fly?


When you ask How are you?



Do you hear
the
reply?



When the day is done



Do you lie
in your
bed



With the next hundred chores




Running through
your head?



You'd better
slow down



Don't dance so
fast.



Time is
short.



The music won't
last.



Ever told your
child,



We'll do it
tomorrow?



And in your
haste,



Not see
his

sorrow?



Ever lost
touch,



Let a good
friendship die



Cause you
never had time



To call
and say,'Hi'



You'd
better slow down.



Don't dance
so fast.



Time
is short.



The music won't
last..



When you run
so fast to get somewhere



You
miss half the fun of getting
there.



When you worry and hurry
through your
day,



It is like an unopened
gift....



Thrown
away.



Life is not a
race.


Do take it
slower



Hear the
music



Before the song is
over.

GREAT TIME YESTERDAY!!!!!

Had an AMAZING time at the party at my son Dave's house yesterday.... Got lots of compliments on my new thinner body and they meant the world to me!!!! But sitting in a camp chair really did my back in.... Relaxed at the pool for a little while.... Now I'm resting with the heating pad.... XOXOXO

JUST TO CLARIFY

I just wanted to clarify a point from my blog about Terry's tirate on Saturday....

His comment that he has been carrying me for 15 years is so not true....

My car payment is in my name and I pay it every month....I pay my portion of the car insurance.... I pay for the high speed internet since he can't even figure out how to turn a computer on.....We have no land line so I have my own cell phone that I pay for....I pay 1/2 the rent and a portion of the electricity and cable bill....Even though I am not the one who keeps it at 64 degrees all summer.....

I buy all my own groceries and cook for myself.....I pay for everything I do or own so how the hell is that him supporting me???

Yes he has occasionally taken my car to get the oil changed or had new tires put on when it isn't pay week but I pay him back when I get paid....

Yes he did give me a TV 1 year and a recliner another year as gifts but apparently he does not see them as gifts now....

He jumped on me buying the cable to hook up my IPad to my TV but it was only $30 and besides if I am paying my bills and my part of the joint bills what right does he have to say how I spend my paycheck???

Also I am the one who had to turn the living room into my bedroom so he could have the master bedroom.....I am the one who gave up privacy.....

So bottom line how is all this him supporting me??? He does not do that financially or emotionally!!!!!

Sorry just had to get that off my chest.....The last thing I want any of you thinking is that I am living off him....

WHICH IS BETTER????

Not sure which is better..... Wars of words or icy silence.......

Not a word has been exchanged between Terry and I since his blow up last night..... I guess that's fine with me but it does make times we happen to be in the same room just a tad uncomfortable.....

Anyway I am pretty proud of myself for going out after lunch and walking around the whole complex..... It was hot but not unbearable....

Normally Sunday is my pool day but since my hair is freshly colored I didn't go down....

Froze some of my shrimp and cooked the rest..... Made myself a good dinner of chicken and zucchini.... The zucchini didn't turn out all that well....

I guess I had better enjoy the last 10 months of living in a decent place because once this lease is up there is no way I will ever be able to afford a nice place on my own......

Going to watch Big Brother and then head to bed...... Tomorrow it's back to the rat race and end of month craziness....

EMOTIONAL WAR ZONE

I seriously do not understand why this apartment is such an emotional war zone!!!!

I was having a pretty good day.... The beginning was bitter sweet as it was my last hair appt with Tim..... As a friend I am really relieved that he is going to finally take care of himself.... As his client I am, of course, sad......

Once he was done with my hair I went to Crossgates to get the adapter for my IPad so I could stream Netflix on my TV.... Wish I had the $99 for Apple TV but maybe down the road.... I also found a top for the party next week..... Ran a few more errands including getting a fruit and yogurt parfait from McDs for lunch.... Finally a fast food that I can eat...... I also went to The Fresh Market and got shrimp and chicken on sale.... Had to double back to get the cocktail sauce.....

When I got home Terry, who has been home sick all week, had actually done the dishes..... I hooked up my new device and finally relaxed with some comedy....

Then it got nasty.... I merely asked Terry how long he would be in the kitchen cooking his dinner as I wanted to get in there and he went ballistic!!!!! All the usual screaming and threats to move out and then he hit way below the belt..... He screamed at me how he had carried me for the last 15 years and on and on and on....... And, of course, I was blamed for him being sick..... Yeah sure I caused him to have salmonella!!!!

He stormed out of here and now I am in stress induced pain.... I couldn't keep some of my dinner down and now I am drowning my sorrows in some SoCo and lime and a percoset.....

I would give anything to have enough money to move out but there is just no way I can do that......

I took a HUGE step with my surgery to improve my health and being 70 lbs lighter has done wonders for my health and self esteem but the stress of living on egg shells is impeding my mental health.....

I, so, do not deserve this kind of misery!!!!!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!

What a lovely holiday.....I spent it with Dave, Julie & Jack at his mother-in-law's house.....

Lots of great food and fun.....I brought Deviled Eggs that were a big hit and my late mother-in-law Rosowski's cucumber salad......

The only bad thing was being out in no cell service country so I missed Sean's call and when I tied to call back his cell was off.....

He did recreate my stuffing mix and said it turned out "swimmingly" and that he added honey....Hmmm never would have thought of that......

I have a sleep study tomorrow night that I am NOT looking forward to.....It seems judging from David's experience it will be as uncomfortable as I thought it would be and not restful at all.....

Sleep Study.......Quite the oxymoron!!!!

I did get a text from my man today which was a nice surprise!!!!!!

I told him I am thankful for him finding me again and that's putting it mildly......

Well I should probably get some sleep since I will get little tomorrow night.....